I don’t know how someone can treat another person with so much inexplicable disregard for another’s feelings. I don’t know why you try to hide what doesn’t need to be hidden. I don’t know how I’m apparently the bad one in this mess. I don’t know how you can foolishly give away your entire life for some piece of shit guy who obviously is toxic and cruel. I don’t know how a friend of four years can be turned into a stranger in a matter of minutes.
I don’t know why losing a friend is like losing a lover. I feel just as broken hearted as I ever have with previous boyfriends, if not more. I don’t know how the sweet, selfless and beautiful person that you once were has been so grossly manipulated and changed by some disgusting, misogynistic, narcissistic, broke, alcoholic, lactose-intolerant, half-deaf, epileptic, unemployed, high school dropout who doesn’t have any ambition or care for anyone but himself.
He’s changing you into him. You’re becoming just as manipulative, just as cruel, just as self-centered and thoughtless as he is. And it sickens me. I am so grateful that you are on birth control and hopefully will not be trapped with this prick forever. I hope that one day you will realize that you are dating a pile of trash and that you deserve infinitely greater for yourself and could easily find it if you weren’t so narrow minded.
Your boyfriend doesn’t even like Doctor Who or Sherlock, for God’s sake! Two things you adore! Red flag!
All kidding aside though, this boy is going to kill you and you can’t even see it. I pity you, and I will spend the night nurturing my broken heart.